It's funny and not in a haw-haw kind of way, but more a peculiar kind of way, that for a lot of women I believe, we experience "mad cow week" once a month.
Some months I do believe are better than others, but this mad cow week has been a big one! I seem to have cried for 3 days, I won't say solid, (but almost) the films we have watched have not helped, but maybe have... because in between has been fits of anger (often), then fits of hilarity (rare) and the feeling of utter uselessness (more than I would wish). I believe that anything that has been even slightly niggling at you, rears it's ugly head and is more demonic that should ever be.
In saying this, while you may have a partner that is being as supportive, loving and understanding of the whole thing than is humanly possible for a male, you still know at the back of your head that they don't understand and you undeniably want to gouge their eyes out for no apparent reason. You also fight with the idea that you KNOW you are being unreasonable but you cannot help these feelings, you keep waiting for the day they will subside so you return to normal.
Life problems like friendships and work and family, however big or small, seem to take over your consciousness and feelings of failure and inadequacy not only creep but snuggle in to your brain where they make you doubt being the true friend, daughter, sister and partner that you truly should be.
It has it's funny haw-haw moments, but soon followed by tears, and the really funny part is when it all subsides and normality is resumed and you think to yourself, how come I over-reacted so much?!
Sanity reigns supreme until round about three weeks later, when yet again..... the madness invades for another week and surprisingly feels like it's never happened before.
Oh being a woman is such fun!!!
